alone.
My partner left me yesterday. Right before my art show. I didn’t see it coming, and now I don’t have anything. I don’t have friends, and I don’t have a partner. I’m going to talk to my (ex) partner on the phone today, and maybe I can convince him to stay with me, but I’m not overly optimistic. But I have nothing now, so I need to try. I’m so alone. I love them so much, and I know I haven’t always been the best boyfriend, and I need to work on that, but even if they don’t need me, need them more than anything. They saved me from killing myself (although they didn’t know it) and they’ve stopped me so many times from hurting myself, just by being the incredible person they are. and i need them right now. Especially right now. I just need to know they’re there, and they love me. If only I wasn’t so repulsively selfish.
So yes. I may not be on much (although I haven’t been on much recently anyway). I just thought I’d explain.

![fromonesurvivortoanother:
[photo: black and white image of a bearded, white, tattoo’d, bespectacled person wearing a black tshirt, overalls and cap, sitting in a motorized mobility scooter, clasping their hands together while smiling big, with their forearm crutches sticking up behind them; text reads: “Know what i’m tired of? Images of disabled people doing random things, turned into “inspiration porn”. These images (e.g. children joyfully running with their prosthetic legs, someone painting with their toes, an elder skiing, etc), are then emblazoned with text like “what’s your excuse?”, “your excuse is invalid”, “if ___ can do it, why can’t you?” and other gems. They call on non-disabled people to buck up and stop making excuses for not doing something, and guilt other disabled folks into feeling like crap for not being able to pull themselves up by the proverbial bootstraps & “just do it”. These images & sentiments are an ableist tool. They exceptionalize disabled people based in ablesist notions of accomplishment & worth. They build on & reenforce able bodied pitydom of gimps. Just fucking stop it ok? We’re just doing our thing, yknow? We are not a goddamn guilt-trip tool to get you to do stuff. Please, if you need to use gimps as a tool to get you to do stuff, yer using the wrong starting point. (*for example, in this photo, i am simply enjoying a moment with a friend… I AM NOT YOUR INSPIRATION!)”]
not sure why people would post this without the image description when there was one right there in the original blog post to use…
ableism— it’s not just lazy, it’s incredibly lazy.](http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzhpd2yY511qh5dt0o1_500.jpg)