alone.

My partner left me yesterday. Right before my art show. I didn’t see it coming, and now I don’t have anything. I don’t have friends, and I don’t have a partner. I’m going to talk to my (ex) partner on the phone today, and maybe I can convince him to stay with me, but I’m not overly optimistic. But I have nothing now, so I need to try. I’m so alone. I love them so much, and I know I haven’t always been the best boyfriend, and I need to work on that, but even if they don’t need me,  need them more than anything. They saved me from killing myself (although they didn’t know it) and they’ve stopped me so many times from hurting myself, just by being the incredible person they are. and i need them right now. Especially right now. I just need to know they’re there, and they love me. If only I wasn’t so repulsively selfish.

So yes. I may not be on much (although I haven’t been on much recently anyway). I just thought I’d explain.

I am being significantly cheered up by the loud thunder and bright lightning right outside my window.

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How New York Pay Phones Became Guerrilla Libraries

An interview with the creator

The concept, sponsored by Locke’s imaginary Department of Urban Betterment, is that New Yorkers will pick up unfamiliar titles while running their errands and then, perhaps, replace them the next day with favorite books of their own. That’s in an ideal world. Of the twoguerrilla libraries that the artist has fashioned, one has been used properly while the other has had its entire collection repeatedly ganked by sticky-fingered pedestrians. Its shelves were also stolen.

But Locke has many more libraries planned. With plywood consoles that slip over payphones as neatly as aprons, these sidewalk objets are endlessly replicable. (No doubt they’ll feature in his 2012 Columbia course, “Hacking the Urban Experience.”) I caught up with Locke over the weekend to ask him about what was and wasn’t working with these literary outposts, as well as why he started the project in the first place. 

More at The Atlantic

This is an incredible idea. I’m going to try and find one pronto.

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[photo: black and white image of a bearded, white, tattoo’d, bespectacled person wearing a black tshirt, overalls and cap, sitting in a motorized mobility scooter, clasping their hands together while smiling big, with their forearm crutches sticking up behind them; text reads: “Know what i’m tired of? Images of disabled people doing random things, turned into “inspiration porn”. These images (e.g. children joyfully running with their prosthetic legs, someone painting with their toes, an elder skiing, etc), are then emblazoned with text like “what’s your excuse?”, “your excuse is invalid”, “if ___ can do it, why can’t you?” and other gems. They call on non-disabled people to buck up and stop making excuses for not doing something, and guilt other disabled folks into feeling like crap for not being able to pull themselves up by the proverbial bootstraps & “just do it”. These images & sentiments are an ableist tool. They exceptionalize disabled people based in ablesist notions of accomplishment & worth. They build on & reenforce able bodied pitydom of gimps. Just fucking stop it ok? We’re just doing our thing, yknow? We are not a goddamn guilt-trip tool to get you to do stuff. Please, if you need to use gimps as a tool to get you to do stuff, yer using the wrong starting point. (*for example, in this photo, i am simply enjoying a moment with a friend… I AM NOT YOUR INSPIRATION!)”]

not sure why people would post this without the image description when there was one right there in the original blog post to use…

ableism— it’s not just lazy, it’s incredibly lazy.

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How is everyone doing this evening?

[image description: piece of art depicting plants, possibly in some kind of marsh. In the center there is a double helix with an eye and an egg at the base, and a brain at the top with a small baby with butterfly wings curled in the center of the brain. The colors in the painting are mostly warm oranges and yellows, with a hint of green. End image description.]

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[image description: Brad Pitt lying in a bathtub and smoking a cigarette. He is holding up a washcloth. The picture looks grainy and old. End image description.]

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Norman Reedus looks like my partner and so = hot.

mmmm

I looked at this and thought “this guy looks a lot like Norman Reedus.” 

Whoops. 

Also, I reaaally like the juxtaposition of the fairly masculine shoes with the delicate/dainty skirt. It’s something I’ve liked for a long time, and once I start T, and get top surgery, it’s something I plan on wearing.

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